I love spring in Texas. It's so much easier to focus on what is good when the sun is shining and the birds are singing and the garden is blooming! My daughter is getting married out here next Saturday and I am so excited about it. I hope she is as lucky as I have been in marriage. My husband is my rock, my best friend and my biggest fan.
I was reading the very first blog post I did right after my Dad died. Wow, I am normally such an upbeat person it's hard to recognize that. I am glad that life has a way of lifting you back up again and setting you back on your path. I want to hug that me lol!
Lately I have been connecting with people on Facebook and blogs that have RA like me. It has made such an enormous difference in my life. Before, I didn't know a single person who had what I had. When I would go into the rheumatologists office, I would try and sneak looks at every single persons hands and feet that were in the waiting room. I was so afraid of the deformity and disability that this disease brings. I was obsessed with trying to see if they looked like what pictures I had found on the internet looked like. I wanted to question them all, I wanted first hand information about this big, scary disease that was now suddenly the center of my life.
That was ten years ago, and I never thought to look online back then. Yay for social media! I can't tell you what a comfort it is to read a post that describes perfectly something that has gone on with my body happening to someone else! I'm not crazy! I'm not alone! Finally, I'm not hiding because I am to ashamed of what is happening to me and I'm not hiding behind this disease. I am confronting it head on and smiling while I'm doing it. What a relief!!
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